Amazingly Ridiculous

I find it amazing (read: amazingly ridiculous) that someone in a position to help you would rather find ways to tear you down. I'm talking about Hutch Tech's band director, of course. I don't really care about when he, awkwardly, watched me play basketball and said I sucked... I don't really care that he used my acceptance to Berklee as a way to make him look good as a teacher even though he had nothing to do with it. I can get over that pretty quickly. His comment about me not making it through the Berklee experience, that I'd drop out after one semester got to me, though.

Why would someone in his position say I would drop out after one semester? I mean, really? I don't even know how to respond to that. Do I prove him wrong? Of course I prove him wrong, stupid question. Do I respond to him? That's what he wants me to. If reverse psychology worked, I would be a completely different musician because of him. What does it say about me since I am letting it affect me? Lets me know I do have a conscious, I guess. Why doesn't he believe in me? ... I don't know.

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